oh. after around 8 months we've been tgether, and broke up for almost 2 years now, he finally found someone new. i cant recall why we stopped contacting each other now since we had a good friendship after the break up. rocky, but good.
For the whole 1 year of life after the break up,
the feelings were still there, no matter how we tried to find someone new. we always tend to find out that we were still into each other . but that was then . These past few weeks, i rarely even talk to him. he was too busy chasing after his current gf. At first i didnt care that much. but now, somehow, having to face the fact that my place in his life, is finally replace, is quite painful . i find myself comparing every guy i meet to him. and i guess, i never really found someone as special to me as he is. he has this special power to make me feel super comfortable around him and i can be everything i am when im with him. and the memories, were just priceless.
Of course i did think of getting back with him before but, er i dnt know. im just super scared to go down that road again. and if we ever breakup again, means i have to lose him for the second time. and if that happens, i dont think i can handle it anymore. ;/ thats why i stayed as just friends with him . but i dont think he understand how i actually feel.
However, i admitt that i deserve this pain. ive hurt im awful lot before. and now he finally found someone that can make him happy again, i should be happy for him (: shouldnt i.. ?
For the whole 1 year of life after the break up,
the feelings were still there, no matter how we tried to find someone new. we always tend to find out that we were still into each other . but that was then . These past few weeks, i rarely even talk to him. he was too busy chasing after his current gf. At first i didnt care that much. but now, somehow, having to face the fact that my place in his life, is finally replace, is quite painful . i find myself comparing every guy i meet to him. and i guess, i never really found someone as special to me as he is. he has this special power to make me feel super comfortable around him and i can be everything i am when im with him. and the memories, were just priceless.
Of course i did think of getting back with him before but, er i dnt know. im just super scared to go down that road again. and if we ever breakup again, means i have to lose him for the second time. and if that happens, i dont think i can handle it anymore. ;/ thats why i stayed as just friends with him . but i dont think he understand how i actually feel.
However, i admitt that i deserve this pain. ive hurt im awful lot before. and now he finally found someone that can make him happy again, i should be happy for him (: shouldnt i.. ?
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