embarassing moment.

STRESS,im in this aerobic dance for MSSM thingy and the practise is every morning untill recesstime or more. and that means i have to miss all those important classes. i dont go for any tuitioon and catching up is definitely not easy wey :/ i cant seem to understand a thing in addmaths and chemistry. and ill be too tired to start my revision by the time i get home. all those dances really really exhaust me. on top of all that, i still have to finish this f1inschools thingy without ANY help from my teammates. so much for being the great "team mates". baah. i did ALL the work myself and all they every did is "giving oppinion". They told me that they're gonna do this and that, but i didnt receive any single work/help from them. u know, i never really did complain anything before, even when the times where i had to finish the folio all by myself. i guess in my eyes, they were my super best friends and im never ever gonna be mad at them. i didnt have to myself anymore. but still, i never did release my tension to them. i remained happy and cheerful all the time. but i guess yterday it was soo overwhelming. and i broke down. ALL i asked is for ANY one of them to accompany me to see puan sakinah. i needed to send our folio. and nobody, i repeat, NOT ONE OF THEM actually walk with me to see pn sakinah. it was soo depressing. was that SO HARD to ask? i never scolded them for not helping me with the folio! syahir,naz and wada were like "oh oh oh nak pg air. nnti kitorg dtgla. bla bla bla" . i said, "ala KEJAP jeee. on the way jugak. i pun nak beli air nnti, " , but i guess nobody heard me. fine. i went up the stairs alone and i stopped halfway up, and i starred at them. i was waiting if ANY ONE of them would actually look back and feel guilty leaving me alone. well guess what, nobody did look back. they were laughing their way to canteen. chit chatting. i was hurt. but not hurt enough to cause me to cry. i went to the teacher's room, discovered that pn sakinah was not anywhere to be found. so i waited outside the teacher's room for pn sakinah and my so called "team mates" to appear. but after around 15 minutes of starring into the thin air waiting mcm org bodoh, i decided to go to canteen and search for them. i asked farah where were syahir semua, and faral told me, THEY WENT BACK HOME. THEY WEEEEEEEEEENT BACK H-O-M-E. imagine this, if i never NEVER went to the canteen to search for them, i would most probably still waiting there untill god knows when :S at that moment, i had it . i tried not to cry, bt i guess farah saw it coming and hugged me. yes, i broke down. at the canteen :/ im not an attention seeker, so i ran away from the canteen , and i told frah that i was okay, and i need to go to my extra class. i cried again, at some pondok . :/