Lost.

I wouldn't want to share my personal stories here, but whatever it is, I feel like shit now. I hate crying as it only makes my chest hurts like !@#$%^&*( . I wonder why, I've tried so hard but I keep on failing? I feel lower than the ground now. I do hope all of this will end soon. I wish this is all just a bad dream, and nightmare and soon I'll wake up from it. please.?