Aidilfitri and others

I found myself getting very very lazy to update my blog. ahah Am still lazy. But here I am. At least to those who cares, you guys know that I'm still alive :) Its already the sixth day of raya, but so what,

RAYA RAYA RAYA! HAPPY AIDILFITRI :) I WOULD LIKE TO SAY MY DEEPEST APOLOGY TO THOSE WHO I'VE HURT, AND HAVE A JOYFUL AND BLESSED EID, EVERYONE :)

I know its kinda late and stuff. but heck, it's the thought that matters. I was busy with my family, forgive me :)

Unfortunately, today is already a school day. I can't feel the raya energy anymore. Well, I do but only when I hear raya songs from Ria Channel. haha I didn't even get the chance to plan an open hsee :/ oh well. Guess I have to wait until exams are over.

Talking about exams, I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED MY REVISION. I have to admit how hopeless I am. I bought all this revision and activity books but I still can't seem to push myself to study. Thanks to this laptop that has been hanging around in my room since forever. And I can't seem to push myself to throw it out either. haha and my parents won't do it for me! So every time I tried to study, once I took a glance at the laptop, I'll be like thinking to myself, *Just open it. You don't need to go online. Just play some songs, That way u can have fun while studying.* Then of course "magically" my msn signed in and suddenly mozilla firefox appears and I can't take my eyes from the comp anymore. With the games and my digital pet and stuffs, it is too tempting. But my mum keeps nagging on how she doesn't want me to fail chemistry anymore, yada yada yada~ Oh boy :/

Raya was very fun indeed. Well I always have fun whenever there is a family gathering. I love my family too much until such point that even hanging around together doing nothing, can make me happy. haha And I do think that's a good thing so I don't have anything to worry about. Nevertheless, I didn't get that lot of duit raya. I think my relatives thought I was already working since I was the tallest among the girls in the family, so i certainly didn't look like a school girl. My mum told me it was a good thing but I can't seem to find anything good about it. haha! As normal, there are a lot of pictures taken on the first day but the pictures are in the other laptop and I'm using a different one.

And now here I am, again trying to start my revision but my plans are ruined since I opened this laptop. ahah I spent the whole evening with Sam and Izzati again. My two beloved bananas. haha Nazrin stopped by just now. The Malacca guy. ooh I had a great time :) I always do whenever they are around.

Next update. My love life. oh my. Truth be told, I'm not even sure if I have one. Things are so blurry and confusing. Its like, one day, I'm very very sure what I want, then the next day, something happen that changes everything. It happens like EVERY SINGLE TIME. God! I need a lead. A hint maybe? So that at least I can ensure that I'm in the right path. :/ The thing is, I just don't want the same things to happen again and again. But the history keeps repeating. And I'll get super scared of relationship and love all over again. and AGAIN, I'll be to scared to trust my own feelings and I'll make the wrong decision and yadayadayada. Just because of some stupid stuffs. And if only guys could come clean with their feelings. At least then I won't have to wonder every time.