yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

I love my bestfriends. I really do. So please notice that whatever I'm going to write here is just me trying to express my feelings out. :)

No one gets me. Seriously NO ONE knows who I really am or what I really feel inside. I'm not blaming anybody for it. I know some of you guys really tried hard to understand. Maybe I'm just not that good in letting out my feelings to people. Whenever I'm hurt, I tend to be more and more secretive . In this moment, I really don't know what I want anymore. I really don't know . It's like I don't know whats best for me anymore. I cry without knowing the reasons why. and that hurts even more . I feel like screaming my lungs out somehow.