Childhood.

I'd really like to turn back time to when I was in kindergarten. I was a total different person than I am now. I was more of a risk taker. Much much more courageous. I'd like to be that again. Didn't really have anything to worry about. Things I love to do when I was little.

1. I looooved to climb the hugee pelam tree behind my house. My dad told me I started when I was as early as 6 years old. I remember climbing up that tree every time I merajuked with my parents. And it was so high and had this one branch that allowed me to somehow lie down on it. The branch broke a few years later. But the pelam tree was so huge and the higher I went, the better I felt. I remember how my mum was so mad that my dad taught me how to climb that tree because she was sooooooooo worried every time I was up there.


My dad built us a tyre swing at that tree. The tyre fell off not long after but the rope stayed for quite a long time . Since the rope was attached to the higher part of the tree, my siblings and I looooved to climb to the highest part, and swing down using that rope. Like a Tarzan or something. I was the one who got addicted the most to the Tarzan game. I remember being scared every time I wanted to swing down because of the height, but when I did it, it felt soo wonderful. Like when you're on a scary roller coaster.

Very very unfortunately, one day when I was swinging, the rope broke and I fell down flat on my back. And I landed on this huge rock. Immediately stopped my breathing and blacked out. I remember waking up in my living room with all this faces around me, my mum was crying. haha That incident affected my health 'til today. My mom didn't let me climb that tree anymore after that, even how bad I wanted to. Until now. Sigh.

Few days back, I tried to climb that tree again and it seems way shorter that it was when I was a little kid. Maybe because I've grown. lol But it is still quite huge. Amazingly, I didn't have the courage to even climb to the first level. I even put a chair so I could stepped on it and make it easier for me to climb. but I didn't have the courage to. It was scary. And a big disappointment I must say. Me, 7 years old, I could climb the tree bare hands, to the top.
10 years later (now) I could barely get to the first branch. wth? Where did all the courage go :/


2. There was this big and quite steep piece of land around the area of my house. I called it 'bukit' when I was little. I spent almost every evening when I was young there. Everyday, brought something I could sit on and slide down that so called hill. Usually I used a box. But that wasn't scary. It was tons of fun! The one thing I did that was kinda scary was this one day, I lied on my side and roll down. Couldn't see anything. Couldn't even see where I was heading to, whether or not I'd fall into the drain very near beside. I didn't care. The more dangerous it is, the better. haha


3. I fell down into this big drain once. Because I was so stupid, playing "buta-buta" around that drain with my sis. haha! She fell down somewhere and hurt her leg. Of course I didn't see because my eyes were closed and she was so quite. Didn't shout or anything. But I guess she was so busy nursing over her leg, she forgot that I was still playing as the "blind man" and was still searching for her. haha! So I basically walked myself into the drain. hahaha she did not see so she didn't warn me or anything. hahaha it was so painful. lol. haha

4. I looooved to jump off from one of those tube-slide. Not from inside it. From on top of it. I stepped here and there, somehow got myself on top of the tube, then jump down. Then I did it over and over again. lol. I tried to do that again last week, didn't have the courage to jump. So I climbed back down. haha pfft.

5. Oh and I looooved to jump down from a fast-moving bike. My brother used to have this BMX bike. So every time you want to carry someone with it, that someone have to step on this two things behind. Standing. Not sitting. and this one time, HAHA. I think aiman remember this. He was carrying me down this slope. The bike was moving so fast, then I jumped down. hahahah And I didn't take a few steps. So maybe because of the inertia or something, I felt the ground was moving to the back so fast like a treadmill and I fell flat on my face. HAHA And because of the steep slope, after I fell flat on my face, I kept on rolling until my body stopped for itself. ahahahhaha. It was so embarrassing, painful, and fun at the same time. I've stopped doing that ever since.


I could list down thousands others. Following my dad climb the attic, jump here jump there. lol. well I don't do all that anymore these days. :) but i'd love to. I hate to grow up. I have to let go of these things. When I was a kid, being scared doesn't really exist in my dictionary. I think it doesn't even exist in most of our worlds when we were young. Which makes everything better. Now I know how to feel scared, and it limits myself to enjoy life to the fullest. grr.