10,000 kg

I hate hate hate it when people have expectations from me . And when I don't live up to the expectations, somehow its ALL my fault. I'm not perfect, and don't expect me to be. I swear I never promise anyone that I'll be perfect. There are times where I can be as horrible as I can get, as mean as I can get, as bad as I can get. I'm only human. I'm sorry I'm not the type of person who somehow is SO perfect that he/she can stand not to give in to their wants and follow the correct path all the time. I can't be a perfect daughter, I can't be a perfect student, I can't be a perfect sister, a perfect friend. But I sure do want to try. Just PLEASE, don't give me pressure . I'm so touched that you people actually believe in me and convinced yourselves that I can be good .
But STOP judging me everytime I do something wrong . Don't be shock if I messed up once in awhile. Or even all the time .
Don't go like :

"WHAT? SERIOUS? ciya did that? woah. I thought she's better. If its any other person, normalla. BUT CIYA???? I am so disappointed"


and start spreading the news to people. Whats the point? It won't make me any better. I know when I'm wrong before you even tell it to my face. and It's not entirely my fault. I'm not "sent from above". EXPECT me to make mistakes. and maybe forgive and lead me out of it .


Again, don't just go and judge, and STRAIGHT AWAY make conclusion of how I am and intend to stick with it permanently -.-