trashbin.

I've always been listening to people's problem, and just be there. Despite knowing the fact that the person will most probably forget me after he or she is happy. And I wonder, who's gonna listen to mine? :/ . Sometimes I wish I don't care. I wish I could just walk away from the people who need me and just well pamper myself. Don't get me wrong. I love making people feel alright again. 'Cause it makes me happy in a way. To know that I've helped someone. But it hurts when I feel so lost and I don't know who to turn to.


I wish I could tell you, my former companion, my friend, just how much I've missed you. And how I yearn to go back to the days where I had you by my side every step of the way. I know I did some wrongs. But there's nothing more I want than to erase my mistakes and the pain I've caused, and just have you smiling at me again. You were important to me. Still are. I'd do everything I could to let you know that. If only you'll let me be in your life again. It kills me to know that I might somehow somewhat be a part of the reasons why you're being such a secretive person now. Keeping all your problems and pain to yourself :(



I wish I could tell you, you famous girl, just how blind you are. I wanted so much to dislike you but if I've ever learnt anything from my life is that you can't judge a person without really knowing them in real life. To this moment, I'm wondering why in the world you are loved so much by them? By them, I mean, my bestfriends. WHY CAN'T YOU SEE? you have these two lovely lovely persons loving you, and caring for you with all their hearts, and yet here I am, in the midst of everything, comforting each one of them from all the pain you've caused. I really do want to think of just how horrible you are, but I know there must be strong reasons why they love you so much that you're worth crying for. And I'm sure whatever you did to them, were unintentionally, but I do hope you'll make things right again.



I wish I could tell you, my laughters, just how much I enjoyed spending time with a wonderful crowd like you. But despite the fact that you guys make me so happy and fill me with joy, I never really feel like I fit in. It's like I'm the black sheep.



I wish I could tell you, my love, my life, my sun, just how much I love you. And I miss you every single second. And how I wish I could share with you everything that I feel, my dilemmas, without being judge by you. Without being scold or mad at just because I feel like expressing my sad sad emotions rather than concentrating on us all the time. But it seems as though I'm asking too much. How I wish you could be eveything to me. The best friend I could ever asked for. But no, you stressed that you just want to be the lover. You just don't understand it do you ?